It seems just as I have positive news to share, I must rain on the parade. For a week my HCG levels went up and the doctor was positive, but then they stopped. Alas, this baby is not meant for our arms either.
Chromosomal abnormalities just mean the baby wasn't perfectly formed. We will undergo more tests, but most likely nothing is wrong with us and it was just nature taking it's course.
Thank you to our dear friends and family who shared our joy, sent up earnest prayers, and gave us love and support. I am so blessed to have the best husband in the world.
This happened for a reason. God wants us to have a perfect baby, and He has a plan. I am trying to get my soul back to the peaceful place I was when I wrote this Chrysalis post. I am trying to be strong in my faith. But for now I feel weak and broken.
Yet still optimistic about our future as parents...